Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Nothing more

sometimes when i sit alone, i began to start thinking again. it's impossible not to think. otherwise at times, when i am distracted by other things, i would probably be thinking that my father is still at work. and at 8.30pm he would be back from work. mom would probably cook by then, then i would know we are a whole complete family again, everyone safe and sound.

so i wait, everyday. at 8.30pm, when will my daddy be coming home. then it occurred to me. my beloved daddy won't be home anymore. neither will he ever come back for dinner. by then, i would be sobbing hard. so hard that i feel so weak. no one can really understand what i am going through. my mother has me to confine to, but who have i to confine to? is it my choice that i do not want to share how i feel with my mother? well, partly, because it is sort of uncomfortable. i want to share with someone i feel so close to, someone my age who thinks i am silly and yet cries with me. telling my mom would hurt her even more. i don't want her to be any sadder than she is already. sometimes i wish i had a boyfriend beside me, so i can cuddle and cry. sometimes i wish we were so near to each other that i can maybe forget all the troubles i have. but how could i? someone i love is on the other side of the globe. how impossible for him to be next to me.

the only choice i have left is to pray to God, and to write it down... because maybe sometimes words best express how i feel deep down inside.

my approach to life has always been fairly simple : Embrace it as it comes.

i reckon that is exactly want i will do and have to do.

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little target

Nickname ~ Ena ~

Nationality Thai ( **Kisses for Shopping, no $$ though** )

Interests I adore gaming~ Martial Heroes~, Perfect World and stuff (Old noob) and I love my absolute FPS game - Wolfteam. I love Figure skating and lots of other cool i don't know. I love Lifehouse music, and I think they are great. So are kelly and christina. I love music that can bring tears to my eyes too. :)

Miss Mood Changer~~ my mood varies ( important part of my development ^_^ )

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Occupation Graduate of the one and only Singapore Polytechnic Diploma in Media and communications Freelance Host, WebDesigner, Makeup Artist (MUA), Full-time Customer Service officer 


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I am a 21 years old graduate of Singapore Polytechnic year 2009 I do feel like picking up the books again but not for something of my line - preferably Dermatogoly or Skin Science. I <3 Science. I don't know why I took Mass Comms.

I want to travel around the world with the love of my life <3 My oyhero ~ and do everything before I die.

Stuff I like

Black Clothes, any Music~, Makeup~, Cameras, Books~, Computers~, and a Nice Big house. ^^ Maybe 100 Billion Dollars is good too. I don't know. Life's too long.