Friday, February 02, 2007


I think I am lost..

And In denial.. I am so sorry I have to say that...

For someone I love so much.. I would do anything.. 
to get this love in return.. but I can not get it.. 

The vibes I have been getting.. he said.. Don't make me
feel guilty..

I was shocked, and devastated because I thought we had it all for each
other. I do not know what to say. I am, lost and confused.
Could he be lying to me all this while?

I.. am sorry~ but I think I have hurt myself too much.
I think I should give him up. I am lost.


God help me. You have already sent an angel in grandma to
explain things to me. Let's hope you will speak to me through her again. I guess I am just his good friend. No where, even if I want
 it to go somewhere. I am sorry,

me, for hurting my heart and deceiving myself over and over again.

I do not know what to believe anymore. I had to ask him
6 times for his number.

He gave reluctantly and said not to call him before 10... or was it after.. 
I don't know. 
I don't
 want to know. 

You know how much that hurt me? It feels like, you don't
want to have anything to do with me.

Fine.. I don't know. Can you at least tell me something
that I want to know?



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